Clovis, New Mexico
29 June 2018
For a while I sat there staring out the window.
Daydreaming about the same thing I’ve dreamt since a child.
A dream where I leave my life here
No use hanging on to an idea,
Never giving it the opportunity to become real.
Excitement built inside as things started to fall into place.
I was finally getting the chance to run away from everything here.
The one thing I never foresaw were the tears that would come from leaving the people and the city I love.
Every wild decision I’ve ever made has one root.
The feeling of entrapment.
I’ve felt trapped my entire life here.
From not being able to leave the house growing up
To having to attend college for a degree I loathed.
I loved Columbus, but extra-curricular activities, leases, a job, had me trapped.
It was too much on my plate and I felt I buried in it all
Clovis has trapped me.
I can’t leave.